|Howard - I'm new here and I've not even looked at any of your photos.
This post kinda puts me off even being here.
EVERYONE has troubles and problems in life at some point or another and whilst I empathise with you for your current misfortune......(pause)......surely this isn't the place to "redeem your soul" or whatever else you're trying to do.
Personally, I was somewhat flabberghasted that your poor wife got about a line of attention in your post whereas your dog got almost three times as much. Ok this is a nature related site but in my opinion its taking things too far!
Religion ought not to be injected here or indeed anywhwere else unless it is a religion related site.
If I was in your situation I'd take my thumb out of my mouth, give myself a shoogle and get on with the trials and hurdles that are facing me. People close to you are needing you to be strong and need a whole lot of support right now.
Don't sit about feeling sorry for yourself or waiting on some kind of miraculas intervention - because if/when it doesn't happen you'll only regret not being more proactive and in touch with peoples needs and torture yourself all the more.
At very least, aim to inspire and give strength and encouragement to those people needing you at a difficult stage in their lives - if you can't manage that then make them smile as it'll make them feel good. Hey and give the dog a bone - sure to make it happy.
I wish you all the best Howard.